Bethany had a really hard week. She is struggling to feel like she will ever be able to stop worrying about being behind in school, if she will ever be able to go to sleep at night without being kept awake and tormented by negative thoughts, and if she will ever be able to have the energy to do the things she loves again. It is a lot to grapple with. On the positive side, she was able to start with a mental health counselor this week and meet with her school counselor. Little Avery always has the ability to draw not just smiles but also laughs from Beth and we were able to enjoy a couple of lovely visits from her! Beth also had her friends from the play over on Saturday night and we got to hear her laugh quite a bit that night. She seemed to really have fun with them. I am impressed with Bethany's ability to pull herself out of bed each morning and give it another go. I know it is super hard on her. If we can just get through this time, things are going to be good again. I just know it. It is hard to get through though and I am tired and done and hate seeing her so miserable and I just want to weep all the time and can't it just be all over? I'm so scared for her and so scared of doing and saying the wrong things and I don't want it to be about me when she is struggling so much but can I keep being strong and positive? Can I keep being the voice of hope, the smile, the motivator? I don't know if I can. It's wearing on me too. But it is what she needs so I will put on my face of hope and make plans and speak encouragement and always keep praying. Another week. It could bring misery and setbacks but it could also bring breakthroughs. Tomorrow could be a great day. Today could be a great day. We just need to figure it out. And we will. So grateful for Bethany. She is so special to me and to each of us. Love her to pieces.
Ok. That was me being super real. Someday I know I will be glad to have a record of the hard time we went through but how we made it through.
Ben started indoor tennis this week in Spanish Fork. He doesn't know anybody there but he still claims to be enjoying it so that's pretty fun! He made a new business plan this week. It involved asking everyone he knows if they'd give him a dollar. I told him that was only a plan to be a professional beggar. I guess all entrepreneurs start somewhere! Fortunately, he only found one person who even had a dollar on him so it is back to the drawing board!
Savannah went to Taco Tuesday after work with her coworkers this week. (I was going to say "on Tuesday" but I guess that is a bit redundant). Now we know what a group of workers who don't drink do for a social moment after work -- get tacos! Savannah came home early from work on Thursday with a cold. She is hoping to go back to work tomorrow. Those darn viruses always hit her super hard.
On Wednesday we went to the Orem Temple Open House. It is just stunningly beautiful! The youth had extra tickets so we went with Beth and Ben and several people from our home ward. It was really fun. Cheyenne lived about a block away from the temple site while they were building it last year. So, going to tour the finished product reminded us a whole lot of her and how much she is going to love it.
On Saturday it was super fun to go to Springville's Holiday Festival to hear Mandy play Christmas music on her trombone in her all-female brass quintet! They are really good! We also enjoyed some hot chocolate from the food trucks. It was fun to see the lights and the line of young families waiting to see Santa.
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